Today I made my pregnancy "facebook official," so I guess there is no turning back now.
Pregnancy is such an awkward time. Suddenly being fatter than normal becomes "cute" and people want to touch your belly and treat you differently. And you want to eat the weirdest crap at the most inappropriate times. "Why yes, it's 2pm and I'm at work, but I really really need a Hawaiian style pizza with jalapenos, bacon, and hot sauce RIGHT NOW!"
Not only that, then people who don't particularly care about you or your well being suddenly become interested in the most intimate details of your life. "Where you trying for a girl?" "Who is your doctor?" "Are you and your husband looking for better paying jobs?" "You know 4 is a lot right?" "Are you guys really prepared for this?"
Well you know what....screw all of that.
You are coming into a family of chaos and we are totally unprepared for you, yes this is true--but you have a mom who will love the crap out you no matter what, because that is what I am here for.
Quite honestly, I don't think we have ever been "prepared" for any of our children. And while they drive me absolutely crazy at times, I could not live without them. Your brothers' smiles, laughs, cuddles, silly moments, and crazy love for me are what keeps me going when things just seem unbearable at times--just as I imagine you will too.
So, with all the fears and instability that is yet to follow--just know none of it is about you.
You are going to be a light in the world that shines for all to see. I don't have to hope for much, because I know that you will be perfect. I just hope you practice kindness and love to all that you meet, and that you never let anyone break your spirit. Life is a gift, and we are lucky to have you--and you are lucky to have us.
Be Kind,
Kelly Airhart (aka mom)
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