Heaven is so far away

It's been a rough day.

I have had these awful stomach cramps that come and go much like contractions.

I am wallowing in misery because I just can't see how any of this is fair.

I don't have anything positive to say, and I'm sorry.

It's a bad day.

Sweet Elijah,

I just want you to know that this is not your fault. My sadness is not your fault. None of it is our fault. You are perfect and will always remain that way. I just miss you so so much.

I love you beyond the moon and stars and wherever heaven lies.

We will be together one day. It just feels like it will be eternity away.