Sunday, November 8, 2015

ok.

It is 9:27.

I am ok everyone.

I mean I'm not ok because I have lost my son and ultimately a part of myself, but I am fully aware of my emotional state of being and I am not wallowing in it.

I will always always always have hard days.

I lost my baby.

I lost Elijah.

Yes I am angry. That is part of grieving. It is normal.

I have not hurt myself or others.

I continue to take care of my family. I make sure my kids are happy and I am doing my best to do what I can for them.

I am a functioning member of society.

I am what passes as ok.

Thank you for your concerns. I just don't want you to think I have jumped over the ledge and hanging there waiting to fall.

I want good things to happen. That is part of my aggravation.

Good things have not been happening.

I will be ok. Support me, send me love, pray for me, but please don't worry about me.

I'm pretty honest with my writings. I will tell you when I need you to worry.


Oh sweet little boy.

I miss you. I look at this picture and think back to how happy you were. 

I miss that.

I love you so much.





1 comment:

  1. Thank you for your honesty! and for sharing. Your self awareness shows your strength. Life is so unfair, but we do the best we can with what we have. You do the best you possibly can and it shows. your love and light show, despite the darkness that has been flung shockingly into your life. love to you. - S

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