Purpose

It is 4:03 pm.

I am about to have to get ready for work..

I work from 7pm to 1:30am tonight. I am already tired just thinking about it.

I was going to take a nap before I went in, but I have been really restless today.

I blogged earlier for The Love, Elijah Project, and I think it just exhilarated me or something.

Here is the blog post:

The Holiday Remembrance Tree is Up

There is no letter in this blog post, I just finally added information on the tree being put up.

But I did start scanning some items for future blogs, and reading a letter that someone requested I not share.

I still need to go to the post office, but I am going to save that for Tuesday, when I have the day off, and I am going to run out to check on the tree, and add some more ornaments.

I have been told by some that I am doing too much, that I need to slow down...but quite honestly...I don't think that I can cut back on my project. It gives me hope. It gives Elijah purpose, and it is my way of holding on to him. If I could cut any activity out of my life, it would be work...but until I win the lottery or figure out a way to make money from home, then I will continue to do both.

Slowing down is just not an option for me right now...and sitting still drives me crazy.

Again, please don't take this as me being ungrateful for having my job. I know I am lucky to have it, and I actually love it most of the time. But it is not the driving force in my life right now. And I think that admitting that is okay too.

Well, I need to run to the store and eat something before I leave.

I am probably going to crash immediately when I get home tonight. I have to turn around and go back to work tomorrow morning at 9am.

Oh Elijah.

I wish you were here.

I wish it everyday.

I love and miss you my boogie.