Second blog of the day...as promised.
I'm better...
It comes and goes.
I have been watching this little video I have Elijah today--well the only video I have of him-- and it just seems so unreal.
I see him there. I see him moving. I hear him...
But he is a million miles away.
I miss him so much and nothing will change that.
The bad days are going to come and go forever from what I hear, so I will just have to take them as they come.
It doesn't make me any less of a person.
It doesn't make me any less "strong."
It just means that some days will be harder than others.
And with Elijah's first birthday right around the corner, I know there are quite a few bad days coming.
Tomorrow I will post something on social media asking everyone to do one act of kindness in Elijah's memory on his birthday using the hashtag #loveelijah
I want to hope for the best, but prepare for the worst that day.
I want to spread kindness that day like crazy. I want to honor that promise. I want it to be my distraction from the pain...
So, say some prayers for us as we prepare as a family for this big day. Pray for The Love, Elijah Project as I am having to kind of work behind the scenes right now to get things put together. And always always...pray for my Elijah.
Elijah. I love and miss you so much. We all do.
Some days it takes the wind out of me.
Some days I just can't do anything but fall apart.
But know that when I fight through it all,
I am fighting for you.
Goodnight my boogie.
<3
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