676: First Smile

It is 9:21pm.

Today was the 2 year anniversary of Elijah's first smile.

How do I remember that? Thank you Facebook memories.

It has been a hard day.

Send love.

I just miss Elijah so much.

Always.

I would give anything to see you smiling at me again.

I love and miss you so much Elijah.

I might not talk about it as much,

but I especially notice when I am counting all the kids leaving a store 

or getting into the car to make sure I haven't left anyone behind,

  and I always feel like I am missing one--

because I am. 

You should be here.