It is 9:35 am.
I am drowning in the waves right now.
I don't really care if it's tmi but I am on my period and hormones are a bitch. They make you feel everything 10 times more deeply and to top it off they throw in extra feelings of sadness.
Plus there is that awful reminder of not having a baby. Not just losing a baby, but a monthly reminded that I won't probably ever have another one.
I miss Elijah so much this morning. Every morning.
This sucks. God it sucks.
I'm keeping this short, because I need to find someway to keep busy and do good in Elijah's memory before I slide into a dark place.
I just needed to vent.
Please forgive me Elijah. I am having a bad day. I love you and I will always love you. I miss you and I will always miss you.
You are important. So so very important.
Not tmi at all. Everything you are going through is important and worth listening to. I hope that you can find peace and comfort today, and every day. Thank you for doing so much good for others, even when you're going through this nightmare. What goes around comes around, so you must have a whole lot of good coming your way. -Samira
ReplyDeleteI agree, not tmi. It is probably good to vent. hugs to you, dear lady. <3
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