Monday, October 12, 2015

You and I Both




I listen to this song all the time and think about Elijah. 

Don't get me wrong, I don't quite feel "free" yet, nor do I really feel "alive"...but I like to think he does.

It is a very sweet and uplifting song. I thought it would be a while before I could share it with people, but here are the lyrics. 

(Oh...and I will never ever be out of words...I love you Elijah. Forever and ever.)


Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing out the whole thing
Oh but at often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only dream of the love
Oh the love that I love, yeah
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages more words
More words than I had ever heard and I feel so alive
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Oh love, love, you and I, you and I
Not so little, you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, finally de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally finally
Well I am free, oh I'm free
And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephone
Well, they're workin it both ways
But if I never, ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Finally found you someone else and that's okay
'Cause I'll remember everything you sang
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, finally de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally, finally out of words



Oh gosh. You were the cutest baby. I hope you are in Heaven having the time of your life. Do you miss people in heaven? Do you get to grow into a boy? Into a man? Will I recognize you when I get there? What is it like? 

Don't forget to keep sending signs you are with me. 

I will regain the strength to pray one day. It is just hard right now. I know God knows. I know he is there. I don't understand, but I don't blame him. I don't blame anyone. I just wish I understood.

Until then I keep asking others to pray for you. That you are at peace. That you are happy. That you know that your family loves you and would do ANYTHING to have you back in our arms.

I love you and miss you so much.
















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