Today's lesson:
I know we live in a very touchy world, and I struggle with accepting everyone being offended by everything. More or less, we have a responsibility to ourselves to learn to be self confident and not take things so personally.
However, we also have a responsibility to others, whether you think you do or not.
Sometimes somethings are better left unsaid.
Something really horrible was said in front of me this evening by someone who had no idea what my situation was. It involved hating babies and wanting to punt them from bridges. I know it was meant to be a joke, but I kindly stopped him and explained. He did apologize, however his words had already sent me in to a panic attack and it was very hard to snap out of.
And he is not the first to say such rude words.
I almost stopped helping a "customer" yesterday because she felt the need to very rudely tell me she hated children.
I said nothing and helped her as I would help anyone else, but it set ill with me all day. I wished I would have stopped and asked her to politely speak with someone else, because she had no reason at all to be so ugly with her words. But I try to just push forward at work and leave my grieving at home.
P.S. She was probably in one of the worst places in the world to be if she didn't want to be around children...so in reality, I couldn't assist her too much anyway.
I don't know. My thoughts and feeling on so many things have changed since Elijah has passed, but I still feel strongly about being careful with words around people I don't know. I am also still in love with the wonder and merryment of children who still see hope and beauty in the world. And quite honestly I don't understand why anybody wouldn't be...
Sweet Elijah,
There is so much I don't understand.
Just know that all that matters is I love you more and more each day and I will continue to be kind in your memory because you are so important to me.
I love you miss you my boogie. <3
Kisses and hugs.
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